My baby girl is 12 weeks old and I can't believe how big she is and how much she has learned. It makes me sad that we will never have the excitement of our 'first' week at home with our first baby, that Gianna no longer wants to cuddle 24hrs a day, that Gianna is now almost too big for her 0-3 month clothes :-( I'm excited to see her grow up and learn and say Momma, but it makes me a little sad she is growing up so fast.
I was thinking the other day that she doesn't even seem like her own person, she just feels like a part of me. (Well, I know she's part of me but ya know what I mean). I used to feel like Jeff was my other half, that I could do anything and be anything and he will still love me (I still feel like this) but now I feel Gianna is my other, other half. Like she is just an extension of my body...is that strange? She's my baby girl, my first daughter (and god willing not my last!) Jeff is already talking about another baby and in a way, I want another one but I also feel sad that someday G won't get 100% of my attention. In a way I want another one right away but the other part of me wants a few years to give G all my attention and love and time. Oh motherly worries that never stop :-) I know it will all work out and is out of our hands...
Now I have to go put my sleeping beauty in her bed for the night and say my 10 minute prayer that G is healthy and happy......good night!
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