Today we said goodbye for the last time. Our u/s showed the the placenta had collapsed and our baby was gone. I'm very proud of myself because I didn't cry and was able to ask all my questions. Usually I'm an emotional wreck and can barely talk. I've had time to cope, pray and heal from all of this. I know God has a plan and I trust in Him completely. Tomorrow is my D&C and I'm scared. Mostly, because the nurse said I would be sore from the dilation process and everything. I was really hoping to paint this weekend so hopefully it's not too bad ;-) I'll definatly post this weekend and let you know how it went. Plus, this is the first time I've EVER been put out (no wisdom teeth, etc) so I have no idea what to expect...
Jeff and I decided we wouldn't start fertility treatments until June/July. Over the last year our life has revolved around planning/saving for a baby, doctor appointments, fertility drugs, etc. We need a break and some 'us' time. Jeff's brother is coming back from Japan in August and needs his car back, which Jeff drives right now so we going to save some money so Jeff can get his much deserved Nissan Titan :-) We also need to pay off some debt and save a bunch so we will be really stable when we have our baby. I also teach dance on Monday nights and have a recital in May, my sister's wedding in June, vacation to Las Vegas for Jeff's friends wedding in June, possibly a trip to Colorado to see Tyson in August and possibly seeing Jeff's brother in San Diego in Jan. Ha- we definatly need a break and hope to be able to enjoy all our vacation and time to ourselves. We'd also like to make some progress on the house, especially the basement and landscaping :-) Basically, we just need some time for us. I've realized I will never get this time back and we should enjoy it while we can. I know it will be hard waiting but it will all be worth it in the end. Plus, I think my body needs some time to recoop after everything it's been through :-)
I also wanted to say Thank you to everyone who sent us a card, it truly meant alot to us!! Also, thank you so much for the thoughts and prayers through this time. Without all of you we wouldn't have been able to be as strong and we were, we're truly blessed to have so many family and friends who care about us.
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I will be thinking about you in the morning and shedding some tears partly for you and partly for what I remember from my d&c. I don't remember being real sore except for my throat where they put the tube down. I too had never been put under before and haven't since. It was scary for me also but I know you are strong and the lord will help you through it. Just don't be surprised when they strap your arms and stuff down. I didn't know that and it scared me. You will probably sleep the rest of the day and just do it and let your body recover. We love you guys and you are in our prayers.
You're in my thoughts and prayers today; I know that today will be a difficult day for you.
I think it's a good thing that you're taking a break so you and Jeff can have some time together, just the two of you. It's like you said, you will never get this time back again. I needed to read that this morning because I've been agonizing so much over our IVF decision, I haven't even been able to enjoy the here and now! I'm going to try to remember what you said, we will never get this time back again.
Take good care of yourself and get plenty of rest today!
You're in my thoughts and prayers today. I hope everything goes well and do a lot of resting this weekend. I'm really sorry for your loss, but never give up faith. You & hubby will be blessed with a beautiful baby soon. Take the time you need to spend with your hubby and enjoy it to the fullest.
You are in my thoughts and prayers! I am SO sorry that you have to go through something like this! I pray that the procedure will not be that painful, and that you can paint this weekend. I am glad that you have decided to take some time for your selfs! I pray that when you do start TTC again that you get your BFP quickly!
Always,
Trista
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